There's Too Many
and I feel ridiculously blessed to say that.
This morning I wrote down the names of everyone I could think of who had a positive interaction with me this year.
I had to start grouping them (“8 am group class Sunday”, etc). It was a lot of people, and far from complete. All day, a random face or name would pop into my head; a reminder of how radically lucky I feel, and how much in my world has changed in the last few years. I do take some credit for this luck, given that I’ve diligently moved and healed and cared and worked to be how and where I am finding myself most days, but gratitude expands my joy further, so I’m leaning in whenever I can.
There’s been a great deal to reflect on this year: hard and fun, punishing and nourishing alike. I’m very deep in process with a lot of what this year has brought and am, maybe for the first time, respecting the fact that things really do have their own timing.
I am practicing tending to my ecosystem with as much delight for the moment as possible, and letting things sprout when they’re ready; to devotedly show up for the people and things I love and want to create. To trust the process, as they say.
To comment on the year, I want to simply very earnestly and publicly thank everyone who helped me, believed in me, listened to me, trusted me, and created with me. My gym community, my friends and family near and far, my students and clients, folks who have supported and engaged with my work, you, my readers and friends, and my heroic and beautiful partner Jackie. And of course, my cats; my stalwart animal guardians, Murphy and Jojo.
This year felt like a preview of what’s possible when I practice reaching out to connect in earnest and without expectation, but with sincerity, and allow myself to receive whatever is sparked by that interaction. It’s been transformative beyond compare and I enter 2026 much clearer than I entered 2025 when it comes to how I want to relate to my world.
I’ve struggled for much of my life to root deeply into any sort of relational ecosystem, and the healing that has occurred in that dimension has and continues to be life changing. From my human relationships to how I tend to the unseen forces of good and beauty in my life (s/o to my Powers and the Land), relational exchange continues to unfold as a seismically powerful dynamic in how I play this life game. I will do my best to hold this truth close as I navigate whatever the future brings, and what I choose to create.
I also love that this year is ending on a Wednesday, a day of way opening and uncrossing, and that the new year opens on a day associated with expansion, Thursday/Thorsday.
May your way open and your good grow.
Happy New Year!
Claymore
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